Monday, December 13, 2004

You Wouldn't Know it by Looking at Me, But I'm Really Good at Getting Rejected

Actually you probably would.

The title paraphrases Seinfeld's famous pickup line (his ended with really fast) to fit today's event. Over my time at Jesuit, whether it was failing to make the cut for the soccer team (twice), NHS (only once), Gormans tests (too many to count), and a couple other things, I have developed a healthy acceptance of my inadequacy. That's cool, its a life skill I'm gonna need. Today was my finest example of this. Nary a sniffle when I ripped open my letter (when I saw the envelope I knew I wasn't in) and found out that my early app to Stanford didn't turn out so hot. They accepted about 20% (900) and I was not in their number. Hopefully Sean, Danielle, Ken, and Gus were more fortunate. But before anyone posts a nice, encouraging comment, just know that Stanford was in no way my dream school (I don't have one.) As most of you know, I don't really know why I applied early there. I could have applied to several other schools early instead of this single-choice shit. But it made it easy, so I went with it. Even if I got in today, that would by no means mean that I was planning on going there. It almost would have become a fallback option. This is not to try to smear Stanford, which is one of the best schools in the country. I would have loved to get in. But I'm not really upset. Cross your fingers for Ken amd the rest of them.

post script
Today at work I built an entire K'nex racecar. It was the first K'nex model I have ever built, so I was pretty proud of myself. The day wasn't a total loss.

12 comments:

Ken said...

Well, Ben, I made it into the elite and the proud, the smallest pool of all: the deferred. Saw the envelope, was ready to shrug it off and get on with new apps, opened it and got a little pissed off.

Out of the three possible answers, this is the worst, because I have to apply to other schools too while continuing to put effort into Stanford. I'd rather have had the closure, dammit. I'd better get a list of second choices together pretty fast...

If I do make it eventually, though, it won't be the same without you, Ben. I was really looking forward to watching you bloom into a heavy-metal partier with an immense knowledge of beer bongs. Disappointing.

Doug said...

Congratualations Ben, now you can focus on Cornell. Now that is a truely great school.
jk, Cornell sucks
jk
Sorry to hear about it, both of you, better luck next time...

Shakeer said...

Meh, whatever. Ben, something tells me you will be attending Cornell. Call it a hunch. I can feel it in my bones.

And then we can hang out in NYC on long weekends.

PS. Shut up Doug.

Adrianna said...

Mmm, note to self: Stanford admissions is full of asshats. Send pipebomb in mail. (NO NOT REALLY DO NOT ARREST ME OKAY THANKS :) )

Wow... that sucks. My condolences, the both of you. Well, Stanford does recieve an assload of applications, and as my parents (who, as PhDs, are both well-versed in acadamia) stated, in the Ivy League it sometimes boils down to not what you know but WHO you know. So yeah, just focus on other places I suppose... keep on cranking out those essays! Soon you will no longer be able to respond to anything in more than 500 words!

Scott said...

Hey, I'm sorry to hear about that guys. Just remember...it's Ivy League...and who wants all that ivy?

Ba-dum-BUM!

Nancy said...

Bummer. Stanford's pretty, but I'm sure you'll have a kickass time at any other school you apply to, just as long as you WANT to go there. Yea, apply to schools on the east coast, then we'll actually be able to see each other.

Scott, Stanford's not Ivy.

Miguel said...

Ivy League of the West Coast. So yeah, not officially, but...close enough.

Jeff said...

I got into U of O.... yea,... but sorry about that stanford thing. i know how much you wanted to go there ken, well you still have a chance, deffered... isn't the end of things. anyways, i got kicked off the blog again... and just when the censor stoped picking up stuff and i was able to read it. figures. well, niether cory alex or I had posted in weeks so ben is in his rights... if you wouldn't mind putting me back in ben, that'd be nice...

Shakeer said...

Ben I just reread your post. C'mon man, I think you're giving yourself too hard a time. You're a genius! Everyone does bad on Gorman tests. A lot of people didn't get into NHS the first time, includng Chris Pozzi and Avital!

It's good that you can deal with setbacks effectively but I'd hardly say that the Stanford letter is any indication of "inadequecy". Everyone who knows you that you're more then adequate at plenty of stuff! Stanford just didn't think you'd be a good fit at their school and you probably wouldn't. Don't worry man, I'm sure you have a bunch of other great schools coming up and I'm sure you'll be happy at alot of these. But I'm pretty sure you already know that.

Same goes for you Ken. Stanford doesn't know what it's going to be missing with you guys.

Ben said...

Yeah, you're right Shakeer, that essay might have got me into Catholic U., but wasn't too compatible with Stanford. Oh well, I hope my spot went to somebody who really wanted to get in. Now I'll just have to go to Notre Dame and lead their chess team to total annihilation of the Stanford chess team. That'll show 'em!

post script
For those of you who didn't get to read the piece of garbage essay I sent in, I'll print off a bunch of copies on April's Fools Day or something. (I was stupid and actually wrote what quotes had affected me and why. Back to BSing!) Oh yeah, and on the "how did you spend your last two summers" question, I forgot Christian Service. D'oh!

post post script
Yes, I listed blogging as an activity. Shakeer noted that when he looked my app over and was sort of regreting not putting it on his Columbia one. Now y'all know which way to go.

Ken said...

I like to think it was just their kind way of making sure I put enough effort into the remainder of the semester, then up until March 1 when the Optional Update form is due. This is definitely not the end of my Stanford hopes.

And Ben, you know you're being a little too self-deprecating. The soccer team thing was God's plan for the Rangers, NHS had (has) absolutely nothing to do with fairness, and like Shakeer said, you're reaching if you call getting a Gorman grade on a Gorman test being rejected.

(So, Cornell hopes? I'm applying there too. Maybe we'll end up together after all.)

Ben said...

So's Doug. Sweet! I was just telling him we needed another guy so we could form a Triumvirate and rule the school. Doug has some hare-brained scheme to manipulate the fraternities, and pretty much just wants to go there because it has the third-best cafeteria in the country and snows on occasion. And I hear they got a decent engineering program so it could be good. But Cornell is authentic Ivy League, so I'm not getting my hopes up. Pudue'll do.